today was painful

mentally painful, not physically. Not only did I have to get up ridonkulously early for my shift at the waitrose (fear not it was only a short shift, pay & a half though, just sayin’)

But I then have a large crush on a fellow employee, who i insanely embaressed myself of. that’s the thing with me, i’m not good at awkward situations. I tend to just smile- which looks rude, or make a joke- although it’s not a joke cause it’s never funny.

ANYWAY, i then get home and being at home in general puts me in a viciously bad mood. So i thought ‘k i’ll go to the gym, good hormones and shiz’

It was nice and empty- good.

didn’t have my ipod- bad.

and after 90 minutes of getting all sweaty and stuffs, decided to go to the sauna. good.

Walk in and there is 3 stunningly beautiful guys in there (early 20s). so i casually sit down and embrace their godly faces and six packs (literal speaking guyz). Then they spoke. bad. Chavviest accents ever are released! then… oh yes… then… they go on to speaking about how ‘fit’ the girls were they wer eout with last night and how ‘rotten’ their ex’s looked on new years. 

you see if i was in that sauna with girls, all i’d be listening to is feelings and gushy stuff… men genuinely think with their penis. fact. Good for the pretty, bad for the ugly. However, they did end the topic on how they’re police officers and what they got their mums for christmas. good. :D

anyhow, i decide to go to the hottub next, in walks the boy i casually saw, slept with a few times and haven’t spoken to for a good few weeks, where we left off in bad terms. BRILLIANTTTTTT. so a bit of small talk ‘hows the family’ ‘have a good xmas’ a few awkward silences and he leaves. and i breathe again.

THEN the guy casually sitting in the hot tub with us (very hot btw- tattoos, nice body, scruffy guy look) and he speaks!- “so i always see you both here, i can’t work out whether you’re together or whether he just fancies you”

Beyond the surprise of him ‘always seeing us here’ i gave him the whole outlined story… we then spoke for a good half hour. I then turned into a prune so had to leave… however, I did find out he was engaged right at the last minute. wonderful…

either- gay.pricks.taken.

pick and choose girls!


tehe.

tehe.

(via rare-mood)


this reminds me on myself and the best friend a ridiculous amount 

this reminds me on myself and the best friend a ridiculous amount 

(via bonechilling)



i’m sure now

the days, months… perhaps years, we spend waiting to feel genuine ‘happiness’ which lasts 10 minutes is truly worth it. That warm, fluttery feeling in the pit of our stomachs. Maybe the wait for that feeling is what makes it so great.

Although i know i have learnt happiness is a mood, not a destination. We all spend ages trying to reach happiness, but happiness isn’t a place, you can’t stay there… It’s like hunger, it comes and goes, most the time us being unable to stop it.



I’M HERE I’M HERE!

This is for you Tash, it better be as good as you say, or you’ll pay

WEEEEEEEEY THAT RHYMES.

Hugs o and kisses x.